26.5.2010

Who would have thought that a simple guy who I got to know from the oh-so-stupid-please-kill-me subject could have turn out to be a guy who brought me joy and showered me with endless care for the past one month. A guy who I only knew of his existence after he made an approach to introduce himself for the moral assignment. A guy who I realized of his capabilities and qualities that caught my attention through the days. A humorous guy who has so much self confidence and determination within himself which captivates me. =]

He had never failed to keep me company throughout my bad times. He had never given up on whatever I had almost given up on. He has always shown me the light through the path when I got lost and confused.

Who would have thought that I could find someone who is so much of me, with similar interests on music preferences, similar mindset and thoughts on most of the things we could ever thought of. A sweetheart who serenades me with lovely songs and composes melodies to express his feelings towards me. Also, never failed to mesmerize me with all his knowledge on things around us.

Of course, a month definitely seemed like years to us, as though we have known each other for a long period of time. But looking back at it, it was just a month ago where we sat in Austin Chase, studying for my finals and watching Southpark during the breaks or sitting on the swing by the pool under the moonlight where we had endless conversation through the night. =]

And today, you have became a part of me that means so much to me. Someone important who I love and care so much for.









And so, Happy 1st Month-sary baby! =]



*Hugs and kisses*

I should really stop abandoning my blog anymore. And so, I shall be updating more often after this. Hopefully, this spirit will not die off immediately or right after I've posted this. =p

Anyway, the past few weeks were indeed one of the most dramatic moment in my life. When I said dramatic, I really do mean it. It was way too much stress for me to handle. The insufficient time for the finals revision, the insufficient sleep during the exam which happened to end up with a blank mind during my law paper and also some personal matters that were stuck in my mind most of the time. It was just too much.

However, there was one good thing for sure that appeared out of all the negative things mentioned. And probably, it might just be the best thing that could have ever happened to me after all these years. I guess the saying of 'Things happened when you least expect it.' was right. It never occur in my mind that things would have changed. I might have gotten used to being in the comfort zone for so many years and even realized that I had mentioned about stepping out from the circle way too many times but each and every time, I just failed. Complete failure indeed. But, not for this time. Not anymore.

Although I must admit that sometimes, the fear will just be there and it will start messing up my feelings, emotions and thoughts. Driving me clueless and uncertain of everything. And with all that, it did not only affect me alone and it just sucks to know that I was not the only one who was depressed by that. But somehow, I was never to be blamed for anything. I was never to be abandoned for anything at all. He was there for me ever since the very first day, despite of all the things I've said. And how could I possibly ask for more. =]

I really do appreciate everything that was done for me. And as time goes by, everything just grow with all the care and happiness showered on me. All I can do is just to hope that things will get better each day.



P/s: I know you'll read this. And I know you'll know that its you. And so, I just want to tell you that you mean a lot to me now. *Hugs and kisses* And I really miss you. =]