26.5.2010

Who would have thought that a simple guy who I got to know from the oh-so-stupid-please-kill-me subject could have turn out to be a guy who brought me joy and showered me with endless care for the past one month. A guy who I only knew of his existence after he made an approach to introduce himself for the moral assignment. A guy who I realized of his capabilities and qualities that caught my attention through the days. A humorous guy who has so much self confidence and determination within himself which captivates me. =]

He had never failed to keep me company throughout my bad times. He had never given up on whatever I had almost given up on. He has always shown me the light through the path when I got lost and confused.

Who would have thought that I could find someone who is so much of me, with similar interests on music preferences, similar mindset and thoughts on most of the things we could ever thought of. A sweetheart who serenades me with lovely songs and composes melodies to express his feelings towards me. Also, never failed to mesmerize me with all his knowledge on things around us.

Of course, a month definitely seemed like years to us, as though we have known each other for a long period of time. But looking back at it, it was just a month ago where we sat in Austin Chase, studying for my finals and watching Southpark during the breaks or sitting on the swing by the pool under the moonlight where we had endless conversation through the night. =]

And today, you have became a part of me that means so much to me. Someone important who I love and care so much for.









And so, Happy 1st Month-sary baby! =]



*Hugs and kisses*

I should really stop abandoning my blog anymore. And so, I shall be updating more often after this. Hopefully, this spirit will not die off immediately or right after I've posted this. =p

Anyway, the past few weeks were indeed one of the most dramatic moment in my life. When I said dramatic, I really do mean it. It was way too much stress for me to handle. The insufficient time for the finals revision, the insufficient sleep during the exam which happened to end up with a blank mind during my law paper and also some personal matters that were stuck in my mind most of the time. It was just too much.

However, there was one good thing for sure that appeared out of all the negative things mentioned. And probably, it might just be the best thing that could have ever happened to me after all these years. I guess the saying of 'Things happened when you least expect it.' was right. It never occur in my mind that things would have changed. I might have gotten used to being in the comfort zone for so many years and even realized that I had mentioned about stepping out from the circle way too many times but each and every time, I just failed. Complete failure indeed. But, not for this time. Not anymore.

Although I must admit that sometimes, the fear will just be there and it will start messing up my feelings, emotions and thoughts. Driving me clueless and uncertain of everything. And with all that, it did not only affect me alone and it just sucks to know that I was not the only one who was depressed by that. But somehow, I was never to be blamed for anything. I was never to be abandoned for anything at all. He was there for me ever since the very first day, despite of all the things I've said. And how could I possibly ask for more. =]

I really do appreciate everything that was done for me. And as time goes by, everything just grow with all the care and happiness showered on me. All I can do is just to hope that things will get better each day.



P/s: I know you'll read this. And I know you'll know that its you. And so, I just want to tell you that you mean a lot to me now. *Hugs and kisses* And I really miss you. =]

Its been three to four months since I last posted something in this blog. Apparently, I've actually forgotten bout this thing. Probably I was too carried away with my studies and the never ending assignments and tests. Worst still, finals will be after next week. Practically, I am exhausted. Mentally exhausted. Towards the end of this semester, I'm getting fed up, waking up as early as 6am for the 8am classes almost everyday. Not to mention, saturday classes at 8am too. wtf.

Anyway, the news that I've lost a friend of mine drove me to my xanga blog which was abandoned many years ago. There are indeed lotsa precious memories in the past that I will not give up in exchange for anything at all. Be it the good and the bad.

Well, although this friend of mine wasnt really a close one. But he was indeed a good guy. A great guy. I just knew it the moment I met him. A guy who doesnt mind giving and not taking. A guy who I think was the only friend of him who was happy for us. The news was just too sudden to me that I just felt like apart of me was taken away. Feeling lost at the moment. However, I know someone else might be ten times or even uncountable times as painful as I felt on his loss. I do hope he'll be fine soon.

'You were a good friend and I'll remember the moments and conversations that we had. Perhaps we shall meet again at the end of my time. Take care my friend'

As happy as its supposed to be, it has now turned into nothing. No more Singapore trip: Here I come. Sigh. But, there will be Hi Cameron Highlands: Here I come. Haha. Will be heading up to the hill with my family on the third day of cny and when I'm back on the fifth day, I will be heading to Pd again the following day. Probably Avillion if there will be rooms available. =]

College's getting sucks. Every week, there's a subject for sure which the lecturer will be away. Then, there will be tons of replacement classes which falls on the Friday or Saturday. Its pretty sad to be having classes on Friday, whats more having replacement classes till late evening. And a week after cny, there comes mid term exam. With tons of assignments to be done. *okie. stop complaining and start doing something*

I must start studying for marketing. =] I dont know why marketing but I just feel like I should. Now, who wants to go study with me?

This semester's schedule is totally hectic. Total of five days classes in a week which limits the amount of days I'll be working. No good. At the same time, I only have limited time to do my revisions. Adui. Still, I'll try to squeeze in some time to study from time to time. =]

Guess lately I've been pretty active in Facebook and especially Twitter. The Twaroke last two weeks was totally awesome but unfortunately, I missed out the Tali Tenang event which I heard was quite fun and enjoyable. So, if anyone happens to have twitter, do follow me @MeryllChan. =]

As I'm typing this, I totally have difficulty in breathing as I'm having flu and cough. Luckily this happened before the cny. Please get well soon. Same goes to Andz. I think I actually infected him. =p

At the same time, I seriously do miss Darling Yun. Please come back to me. Haha! Of course after Jason has left to his hometown. =]

Well, will be renewing my passport tomolo with Andz for we will be heading to Singapore during the cny! =D awesome!

This blog is dead. Laziness is taking over me. I'll try to update more often. Basically, I just spent my entire sem break by working, partying, catching up with long lost friends, knowing some new ppl and going trips with Andz.

And starting on Monday, life will be pretty much involving studies and travelling to college again. After for almost two months, it really feels weird to be going back to college again. Anxiety? I dont think so.

The assignment almost killed me but somehow I survived. With all the hastles, I actually forgot to study for my quiz which was on this morning and I thought I was as good as dead. But again. I survived. It was good. Haha.

So now, all I gotta do is just focusing on my finals. Seriously, past experience made me study harder. Or I shall say, I dont wanna waste my money. =p

Afterall, its just two weeks. Then, I'm like freaking free and go complaining around that I've got nothing to do. Haha. Most probably will be heading to Bangkok with Andz in the middle of next month. Cant wait. =]

The rear mirror's fixed but unfortunately its in black. Probably will only paint it to silver when the time is right. Urgh.

So assignment's done. All I need is just to focus on my studies for the finals which is on the last day of this month. Two papers on the same day itself. This is madness. But that means I have longer holidays. =]

While Andz's busy deciding whether to get an LCD or a camera or even a GC watch..I'm totally stressed up to complete my studies for the finals asap. What a life. And when he was busy shopping the other day..I spotted this damn freaking awesomely nice AX shirt which I wanted so freaking much. But thinking twice..I would rather take the money and spend it on the christmas presents to be given to his little nephews. =]

I cant wait for Christmas. =D

For the first time ever..I guess 'pang you chai-s' or translated in english was what we called 'buddies'..are seriously useful in life..they'll never let you down whenever you're in confusion or dilemma or even during the times of depressions..

This happened due to the experience of the worst day ever in my life which happened to be yesterday..everything seemed to just went haywire..spent my whole day standing and waiting to submit my documents..and when it was my turn..it took only few minutes to know that I've been rejected..wtf..

And bcoz of that..all the time were wasted and I only had limited time to study for my paper this morning..and whats even worse was..as I was driving out from my house to meet up with my cousin and then get some green tea frap in starbucks while studying..there was this freaking retard who just opened the door without looking out for cars passing by..this retard was parking illegally on the side of this narrow street and yet..opened his door like his grandfather's road..wtf..

Of course my car was damaged at the side and basically..my rear mirror was no longer functioning..damn..and with that..definitely I was in trouble..

Anyway...moral of the story..'buddies' are still the best..wtf..haha..


Owh..the paper I did this morning..luckily..it was okie.. =]

Andz: The other day I saw this nice Thomas Sabo pendant..I wanted to buy..

Me: *Awww..such a sweet guy <3*

Andz: But I'm not sure if its gonna look good on me.

Me: WTF..I thought you wanted to buy it for me..damn..you made me all excited and I just wanted to tell you how happy I am.. -.-"



Yea..what a boyfriend I have..urgh..haha!

Damn..I wonder what the hell is wrong with me these few days..it seems like there's always malfunctions in my body..started off with gastric and then regular discomfort..urgh..

I almost forgot that midterm's on next friday..thank god its only one paper..but yet..I still have not started revising for all the subjects..busy and lazy..

Anyway..guess I'll be hanging around kl more starting from next week..gym most of the days.. =]

Owh..I guess most of the ppl will be hanging out in clubs for the halloween parties rather than going to AAR's concert though..saddies..

I am fat. I am round. I need to lose my freaking weights.

So my dearest bro, stop singing Doraemon song to me anymore. Damnit. haha.




Celebrity fitness, I'm coming to you. Very soon. =]

I'm damn freaking sleepy now..and I'm probably just crapping all the way in this sad post..

Glad that I showed up in my friend's birthday supper session which I thought was dinner at first..haha..even happier to know that she was freaking happy to see me there all of a sudden when she was just about to prepare to leave..

My brain's shutting off..but all I can think of is "I really need to start studying for the LLS quiz on Monday"..as well as.."I neeeeeeed to start revising for my microecons or I'll be as good as dead"..

Someone..please please please make me study hard for these two subjects...

History shall not be repeated..no more wasting money..urgh..

Most importantly..no more procrastinating..

I NEED TO STUDY..



Goodnight. =]

I'm seriously lazy to update my blog..I know it looks dead..but I'll try to revive it asap.

Well..Avillion trip was awesome..pictures are already in Facebook..which explained why I'm lazy to upload them here..while work has been boring for not having much things to do and yet..interesting at the same time coz lotsa time for chit chatting with my fellow colleagues.. =]

I even had my hair cut last weekend..I mean I had cut my fringe short..which made me looked kinda weird..ppl around said it looked okie..but probably its just me who are not used to the new look..I want my hair back..urgh! my mom said I looked sexy with my haircut one day..and in my mind I was thinking.."what? do I looked like an Egyptian queen to you?"

I had a catch up with my ex schoolmate few weeks back before he went off to Philipines..and also with Afiq last week..and now I'm looking forward to the jamming session with him and the rest of his bandmates I assumed..wait till I get the list of songs first then.. =]

Owh..might be showing up in the All American Rejects's performance on the 31st though..and so..I will have to miss the Mocca's performance..urgh..I just cant have the best of both worlds. =[

Classes will be starting on Monday..I'm lazy already..thinking bout the journey that I need to travel everyday..urgh..

For now..I miss my boyfriend.. =]

Raya Holiday

Malacca trip on Sunday..shopping spree on Monday..working on Tuesday..

Avillion tomorrow!! <3


Pictures when I'm back..I promise.. =]



Still...Selamat Hari Raya peeps!

Unplanned excitement

Seriously..kite flying is really really fun.. =p

Okie..I missed the opportunity of flying a kite when I was little..as a matter of fact..I've only tried to fly a kite which I had learned to make using paper and tree sticks during my kindergarten..which happened to be failed to fly high up in the sky..

Owh..not only that..I even remembered once I bought a big eagle kite..from a beach but it can nvr fly..not at all..and mom told me that the seller was a liar..coz the eagle kite was way too heavy to be able to fly.. =[

And suddenly..after all these years..Ivan, Xian and I so happened to passed by Tmn Melur with lotsa children flying kites at an empty field..it caught our attention right away and Ivan decided to stop the car and joined the crowd..haha!

We bought a nice wonderful kite and started flying like an innocent child.. =p

And with Xian's advice of throwing the kite into the air and started running like a mad cow..which most of the time I was the one who did the running..the kite managed to fly high up into the sky..but unfortunately..it crashed back down to the land after a few mins.. =[

So we ended up..taking turns..running and running across the field from one end to the other..hoping that the kite will fly high up in the sky and stayed wherever it is..but still we failed...badly..that we actually looked like retards running around..

After the uncle who sold us the kite caught me running around..he came to me..and taught me the right way to fly a kite..without the hesitation of running across the field..and once Ivan threw the kite into the air..the kite started to fly up to the sky..without needing the uncle to run from where he was..he just moved few steps back and forth..and the kite stayed up the sky..for quite a moment..then he passed us back the string and asked us to just control the string to make it stay wherever it is..

BUT still..we FAILED..after passing the strings from one to another..the kite crashed again..then only we realised..it was the wind's fault..there wasnt much wind yesterday..thats why..none of the kites around managed to fly high up and stayed in the sky..haha..so we called it a day instead.. =]

We were all tired and soaked with sweat..especially Ivan and I who did most of the running..but afterall..it was really fun.. =D













After an awesome kite flying experience..we three continued our journey to Look Out Point for dinner..and before that..we spent our time enjoying the view and talking to each other at the tower..the sunset view was really beautiful.. =]





Anyway..the whole journey started with a lunch appointment.. =] and then came along the spontaneous plans and activities that kept us entertained for the whole day..we shall do it again.. =]

Three little reunions =]

I finally get myself really updated with all the happenings in Kampar. Thanks to both Yun and Amerz. =] I'm seriously glad that Amerz actually made it for lunch. We had a hell of a time in McD and I seriously miss my Utar mates.











I promise, I will visit Kampar after the finals. No worries la, Yun and Amerz. =p

I'm really looking forward to seeing them again and have some exciting experiences in Kampar really soon. =]

After the short lunch, I headed to Pavilion for a meet up with darling and few highschool mates. Had lots of stomach-pain laughing moments in Ichiban. Although I only managed to catch up with them a little since I was there late, but it was more than enough to be experiencing again the bond that we once have during school time. =]

Then after the short reunion, I went for a meet up at the same place with my aunt and two cousins who stayed in Setiawan who were earlier accompanied by my mom. It reminds me so much of the moments I've shared with Anson and his little sis about two or more years back. =]




My cute little cousin sis. <3



Together with mom on the right and aunt on the left.



Anson. =]



At the end of the day, I'm glad that I've spent my day meeting up with most of the people who I've not heard from for some time. I miss you guys. <3

A Day of Movie Marathon

Movie marathon, three movies in a day..seemed awesome to me at first..and after the first movie, Ghost of Girlfriends Past..we felt cool..but after the second movie, I Love You, Beth Cooper..both Andz and I were getting tired already..

Probably we were tired of sitting in a dark place for almost two hours each time that made us uncomfortable..and so..during out third movie, Dance Flick..we had our 1901 hotdogs before the movie started..and once it started..we were thinking..this movie is ridiculous..then later on only we got to realise that its something like Scary Movie..wth..damn freaking lame..made us felt like so retarded..

Lesson learned: Do not watch any new funny movies before watching the trailer and knowing the synopsis of the story.

And by the time we watched almost half of the movie..we couldnt take it anymore..and we left the cinema..and went home for a sleep instead.. =]

But overall..the two movies we watched earlier were good..worth watching..

Anyway..no more movie marathon like this anymore in the future..no way..therefore, next wed will be a shopping day instead.. =p

Now and then

I guess its really possible to have an answer without a reason why. Or maybe the reason might even be an illogical one. OR is it best referred to as unacceptable instead?

Perhaps the reason might even be a lie. Nobody would ever know the real truth except for the person itself.

Why keep guessing all these years then? Probably the mind puzzle that it left was truly distubing. Its like having the desire to find the few missing pieces to make it complete.

And when the real truth has revealed, the puzzle eventually turned out to be meaningless. A waste of time.

Infurious with all the blames which were just plain excuses. Having the thoughts and will to actually transform. Be different. Learning from the past. Everything was just wrong.

It shouldnt be any changes. Shouldnt be any blames taken lightly. Shouldnt be any puzzles. Shouldnt be any thoughts. Shouldnt be sacrifices.

Two words. Ignore and Forget. That was exactly what should be done. That way, perhaps everything is just everything it is right from the beginning. No lost. No confusion. No nothing.

I shall say, lesson finally learned.

Wedding dinner

No..its not prom..its not anyone's birthday..its Andz's cousin's wedding.. =]

The dinner party on Saturday was fun and the catering was really delicious..and the wedding dinner last night was wonderful as well.. =]







Took lotsa pictures with Andz's cousin..the girls in the picture above.. =] *too bad that Felicia was not able to attend..or else..we'll camwhore together gether..haha..*

More pictures to come once I've got them from Jesz. =]



Now here's some of the picture taken with Andz's Topshop Tee which turns out to be my favourite shirt while waiting for him to come home and send me off to college.. =]













Cant wait for Thursday..free room stay for a night in Impiana Hotel..thanks to Aunt Mary..staying next room to birthday boy on that day, Eddie..Andz's cousin..awesome! =p