Irresistable

Perhaps is the only word that I can use to describe and what's keeping the door locked is still a puzzle to me..but I know I was right.. =)

Those fingers running through the face..the chest and arms that were protective enough to keep it safe and warm..the ticklings and laughters to get awake of..the smile that made it difficult to get off from..





Having you asleep by my side really got me mesmerized.. =)






And now..I miss you more than ever..

My unexpected classmate =p

I cant believe who I'll be studying with this time!!




Mr Chan Chee Weng!




Its seriously unbelievable!! haha!

And now..we shall be good classmates..kekeke!

Speaking of him..its been a long time eversince I last met Mrs Chan.. =p hopefully she's doing well.. =)



I guess things are getting better..I hope.. =) and starting from this coming week..I'm gonna be indulged in the hectic study schedule again..which means..less hanging out with my darling..ishh..

Excited and scary =p

Have you ever wondered how you'll looked like when you're really really excited? have you imagined how funny it will be?

Actually..I've never really imagined before..coz I know just exactly how I'll looked like..and trust me..its really funny..or mayb..scary.. =p

Here you go...

















Yea..I know..so stop laughing.. =p Found this when I was browsing through some old files in my pendrive..hehe..

I guess I was really very excited and happy to be able to take a close picture with VJ Joey..I lurveeeee... =p anyway..it was taken bout like four to five years ago..during The Click Five Prom Concert..with a very nice old friend of mine.. =)

And here's another one..with VJ Sarah.. =)




Ahh..what a moment.. =)









P/s: Everything's okie now..and thanks to the nice warm huggies! me loveee.. =D

Not just yet

Fate is definitely not in my hands..not at all..and I'm just about to give up every single thing..it seems that I've been completely overshadowed..no matter how hard I've tried standing on the ground..I still end up collapsing..so much so..its getting really tiring and I'm starting to doubt my patience as well as the ability of succeeding..

It seems like all my strengths are starting to go haywire..begging for mercy..raising white flags everywhere signalling of a lost battle..its just way too exhausting..not even knowing what is for the best anymore..for every steps taken always seemed to be another mistake..

Is it luck that's been playing the whole part? or is it just sth that I have not realised yet?

A wise man said.."Failure is a part of life. It depends on how you handle the failure."

Probably..this is the only thing that is keeping me alive at the moment..

All the best, Amerz and ymc =)

Its really sad that Amerz is leaving to Kampar in few days time..someone who was there for me whenever I'm sad..gave me countless pieces of advise whenever I'm in need..someone who cares so much of me..and now he's going to be away from me..I know he'll be back to KL in few months time again..but we will never be able to share our study moments together anymore..

But I promise we'll always stay in touch no matter what..always be there whenever he needs someone to lend an ear.. =) and you will definitely be missed!! *huggies* *sobz sobz*

And of course..not to be forgotten..Mei Chern as well..the girl who I have spent two sems of my foundation with.. =) wonderful moments that we shared together as classmates will not be forgotten..the girl who's always cute although seemed to be blur most of the time..I still remember the time when our group back then went over her house for revision but ended up spending our day talking instead.. =p

Anyway..a great day I've spent with both of them today..more with Amerz though..thanks to Amerz for the treats..both lunch and movie.. =)
























Perhaps..I might even be going to Kampar for a visit next month..if Dat Dat's planning to go.. =p

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Anyway..I had a pretty great time yesterday..the practice was good too.. =D and I'm really looking forward to the next practice..till we come up with more songs in the list..and just maybe..we would consider of the open mic night too.. =)











Anyway..I wonder if it can sense what's in my mind or its just plain lucky to have always come to me whenever I wouldnt wanna care much..somehow..whatever it is..it remains the same.. =)

Comes what may =)

A slight feeling of guilt kinda built up in my chest...and as soon as the talk was over..I caught myself feeling sorry..wondering if I could just knew everything right from the beginning..maybe I should've learned or realised that I was just being biased all the while..but I did not obviously..

I knew..it was never too late to have realised that now..although I might seemed to be in no position to speak out or sth..which was exactly what I thought of before this..but I came to my senses that I do definitely have the rights..to voice out whatever I think is appropriate of course..I'm apart of it..

And a nest that was so well-built..that I was staying in to protect myself all along..this is the time when I should actually leave it behind..time to really spread my wings and fly..time for me to look after of others instead of being looked after at..although I felt that I've left it long before..but I know...I just know...that I just took off for the very first time ever in my life.. =)

I'll do whatever it takes..I swear I will..Comes what may.. =)

Head start

I should have be gone...but then..I showed up..eventhough apart of me feels like ignoring..why? I cant find myself a reason why..but I just know..that there's still sth left in me.. =)

At the same time..its funny that the visions are coming back..good news perhaps.. =p



Anyway..I'm ready to get back to business..looking forward to the new environment and hopefully everything's gonna be fine in the new place.. =)

My favourite =]

Mocca never once failed to make me feel good whenever I hear them..especially when I'm feeling blue..or even when I'm feeling fine..their music keeps me lighted.. =)

I just cant find others that are as good as them..and they have now become my favourite..I'll be waiting for their upcoming album for sure..hopefully there will be one.. =D

And I'm definitely looking forward to the news that I've received yesterday..I really hope it worked out.. =]


Off for more Mocca now.. =p

It shall be gone soon

There's always a shadow that I see each time when I close my eyes..I cant resist the thoughts that go through my mind..no matter how hard I tried to get it out..it will always remain..

Although I have always realised that there shouldnt be any need for all this at all..but apart of me couldnt care less for it..despite of having to know not even a single thing on the other side..

But I believe this shall be gone soon..






On the other hand...I actually enjoyed myself these five days with the companion of the sick patient..poor guy..and I actually sense sth good.. =)

Scooby Dooby Doo tooo =p

Watching Spongebob..Power Rangers..Crayon Shin Chan and Doraemon really brought back most of the childhood memory.. =) and for why I ended up watching so many cartoons or children programs were bcoz there's nth much to do besides watching them..

I was stucked in the ward for the whole day since Wednesday..haha..okie..stucked isnt the appropriate word to use coz it sounds like I'm so reluctant..well...I actually volunteered to take care of someone in the hospital.. =p

And luckily..he's recovering after the surgery two days ago.. =) hopefully he'll be completely recovered soon..and then I'll be able to hang out again..and also going to my beloved Pelita during the night..haha!

Damn..I definitely miss the moment when we have a nice conversation in Pelita and then going for a car ride in the middle of the night..and now..I'll just havta wait.. =)


Get well soon!! =D




P/S: Happy Mummy's Day!! Mummy is the best.."Engkaulaaaa..ratu hatikuuuuu"... =p *hugs and kisses*

Words for you

I seriously hate it when someone orders me to do something as though I owed him..but at the first place..that someone is the one who was asking me for a favor..plus..that particular person wasnt even being polite enough to ask me nicely..

Who the heck you think you are to be bossing me around and asking me things with no respect at all?!

If I could be mean..I wouldnt even give a damn bout anything you asked at all..

Sending me a short msg rudely isnt showing any good side of you..plus..it kinda reduced the level of respect from me to you..to be honest..the good impression that I have on you wasnt even much at all..and with all the attitude that you're showing..it soon will be reduced to none..negative..

And stop being self-centered..thinking that you're the victim all the time...coz the truth is..you're not..and the real victim isnt making any sound at all..

Furthermore..its best to just stop accusing others or stabbing ppl's back to make a good impression on yourself..coz it wont even do any good to you..its not necessary to be believing in every single things that've been said..and the most importantly..stop being jealous of others..

Nobody is trying to compare anything at all..except for yourself..its just you who were thinking too much..assuming that ppl would care of small little stuff that you think is big..you yourself is making others as a threat and thus reducing your courtesy and confidence of who you really are..

So wake up and face the real world..nobody..I said nobody is perfect in this world..so why not trying to be the best..and stop worrying about how others are better than you do..or complaining how unlucky you are compared to others..

Speaking of that..mind you..they wont be who they are now if they did not play their own part and work hard to retain that status..trust me..it doesnt just fall off from the sky..and be that way forever..

Eventhough they might seemed to be lucky and all..but they do have their flaws too..so why all the jealousy? think about it..and try to show some respect when nobody is owing anyone here..


P/s: Darl's the only one who knew this particular person very well..and I think you feel the same way as I do..haha! and I wouldnt be that mean laaa..but if it repeated..mayb I should do as what you said.. =p

Expecting more experiences =)

I now pronounce that I've officially completed my first year..*applause*..haha!

But sadly..I'll only be having three weeks of holiday..thats too short seriously..or else..I'll be having five months of holiday instead..after a long consideration..I've decided not to waste more time..as time is totally valuable..at the same time..I'll be able to cope with my work..double responsibilities..more commitments.. =)

Anyway..I've watched X-men..and yea..I agree Hugh Jackman..is hot like what most commented..but I actually kinda like the character Gambit too..haha..why not? he's cool..haha! and now..I'm pleased with myself..totally..who needs to wait afterall! =D

*I know darling will be proud of me..haha!*

Speaking of darl..its time to have some fun outing..before I'll drenched myself into the busy world again.. =) and I want Kripy Kreme..haha..anyone tried before?? =)


And I seriously cant wait for Prison Break..I'm so gonna finish both of the third and forth season in this week.. =D



P/s: I love my Mom...and thanks for all the supports whenever I'm in need..you're the best! *hugs and kisses*..Happy Birthday, Mummy..hope all your dreams come true.. =)

Badminton is healthy

And now I've regretted watching 'The Uninvited' instead of studying on Thursday.. =p

I've wasted two days of my free time watching movie and playing badminton today..okie..I know..its me who wanted to play so badly..haha..and now..I havta work like super hard to complete my revisions by tuesday..which means..I'll only have three days left..this is scary.. =p

But still..I totally enjoyed the badminton session today..and we should totally make it more often..haha..its good to be running and sweating again.. =)

Now..anyone wanna study with me too? =p





P/s: I've figured it out..and there's no other way...I'm totally going for it.. =)