The experiences gained in these two months of the semester break is totally priceless. So much learnt, so many efforts were invested to make things work. Not to forget, determination and commitment too. Although there were times when I felt like nothing is working no matter how hard I've tried till the extend of calling a quit, but I just knew it was not the right thing to do. There goes the phrase, 'No pain, no gain'.

Most of all, I do love what I'm doing. Bringing about changes to people's lives in a good way gives me satisfaction. Imagine people coming to you, saying 'Thank you for everything. You've completely changed my perception on how things can work in a better way'. The feeling of joy that I will never be able to explain. =]

In some other way, I've benefited too. Learning that an idea can be developed into actions just by making a move. Everyone's got to start somewhere indeed. Which had totally drives me into making my idea into a reality. Of course, there will be obstacles, but whats more important is to focus on the goal instead of the obstacles. Ignore the talking that is naturally developed in mind on the negativity. When there's a will, there's a way.

Same things apply to people's behavior. I couldn't be bothered much by certain people's actions which brings bitterness to my life. The less I care the better it is. Of course, I tend to get annoyed by this kind of immature actions that have been existing for a very long time. Being a copycat in whatever I am doing and also pretending to be nice but having a motive or whatsoever. Urgh. It just disgusts me. Somehow, they never know that they are the only sole player in the game which they are playing. How amusing.

As for me, I will just continue focusing on whatever I'm doing which actually makes me happy. =]

Finals is finally over. Although I've been living like a zombie for the entire week of examination, trying to insert as many informations as I could into the brain before I sat for each paper, I would say that it is all worth it. And I'm confident enough that I'll have better grades this time. =]

Second year will be commencing on November and I can be fully committed to my job till then. Also, I'm still looking forward to the training program which will be held on October. Will be away from KL for two weeks. Hopefully I wont really get bored of Taman Negara. =p

As I've mentioned before, I went for a trip during the Raya holiday. But unfortunately, the government made a change to my plans. My Singapore trip turned out to be a Penang and Cherating trip. The reason why is because I couldnt get my passport renewed on time. In fact, I wasnt given any numbers for the queue at the immigration office and were asked to come back the following week. Thats why we headed north instead of south.

When we were on the way back to KL from Penang, I got a call from a dear friend and she asked us to join her and her friends for a trip to Cherating. It was a fun getaway although I must say that Cherating is not the best place to snorkle. =p

Also, the sea water was really way to salty. Not much fishes around, but there are nice chorals. =] While at the beach, there were alot of cute little starfishes. They were so adorable that I actually caught two of them using a cigarette box and brought them back into the chalet. Somehow, I think I killed them cause I never see them moving after placing them in a paper cup. =[ *sorry starfishes, may you both rest in peace =[ *

I guess for now I'll just look forward to the upcoming plans for a trip in December. =]

When I'm totally occupied with my revisions for the finals, I started watching the first season of GG. I know its like the stupid-est thing to do but I just cant help it after watching one of the episode of the third season on 8tv. Urgh!

And then I got so caught up with the entire series that I cant stop watching the whole season. Thank God, I spent about three to four days to finish the entire season plus, I did make sure that I've done my studies for the day. =]

What's worst is that now, I cant keep my mind away from the second season. Its like my mind constantly thinking of how its gonna be, whats gonna happened, who's gonna be with who and so on. Tell me, how can I get rid of these thoughts till I'm finally done with my finals. Its totally killing me. Guess I'll just gotta force myself not to think of it for another four days. Afterall, four days seems pretty short for me. =]

And yes, I love Dan Humphrey. I clearly do not understand why everyone's crazy over Nate Archibald or Chuck Bass, but come on! Okie, I do love smart guy who has determination, vision and a big heart. Of course, I do not like pretty boys. That explains pretty much why my choice would be Dan. Thank you very much. =p

Now I just cant get enough of D. And probably with S.

Till then.


XoXo.

I commit to adding values.


Yes, thats one of my goals or I shall say the principle that I'm following starting from today. It feels really good to know that we are able to change an individual's mindset from negativity to positivity. Whats more awesome than helping individuals to improve themselves in many ways.

TalentEDge definitely broadened my projection on the corporate world. The experiences gained are priceless. =]

And for the mean time, its all about time management and multi tasking for my job and revisions for the final exam which is just two weeks away from now. While I'm busy with my job, I will have to arrange my time accordingly in order to be able to complete my revisions on time. Tiring of course, but its all worth it.

Once the finals is over, I cant wait to be 100 percent committed to my job and also, I'm anticipating on my first experience in the training program that will be held in October.

But before that, of course, I am more looking forward to the holiday trip during the Raya Holiday with the boyfriend. =]

I fell in love with Secret by One Republic even way before it appeared in The Sorcerer's Apprentice. And yes, Jay Baruchel is still looking cute as ever. Stupidly cute. Dorky cute. Haha. And whats even better is that there's Nicholas Cage. =] Still, Inception is one of the best movie this year though.

Anyway, things seems to be much more peaceful these days. No more feelings needed to be hidden, no more worries of leaving a scar on anyone, no pressure, no nothing. And I'm still in the search of getting a marketing related job. As in a part time job, to make use of my free time. =]

Mid term's finally over. And everyone seems to be busy with their second year subjects except for me. Yes, I was supposed to be taking second year's subjects too, but due to the inflexibility of my timetable, I gotta forget bout them and just take them in the upcoming semester. Which means, I will be having two months of holiday instead after the finals before second year commence. Also, it means that, I should look for a job too.

The good news is that, holiday for Raya will be right after the finals and I will be going off for a trip. =] Destination still unknown for now, but might be Hong Kong or Taiwan or even Bali. Awesome! Cant wait for the holiday. =D

At the mean time, gotta concentrate on the finals which will be in one and a half month's time. =]

Penang trip was overall just okie. In fact, the fun was spoiled even before we got there. The roadblock before Sungkai Reststop was a mood spoiler. We got no idea how we would ended up being pull over due to speeding while the other two Sat Neos managed to escape when they were way ahead of us. Sigh. Plus the policeman actually negotiated the amount of bribery with us. Wtf.

Police: Kereta bawak laju oh. Mcm maner.

Andz: Boleh settle?

Police: Mcm maner nak settle?

Andz: Rm20 boleh?

Police: Maner boleh. Rm50 la.

Andz: Takde la bang. Rm20 je.

Police: Bawak gf lagi tu. Gf takkan takde.

Andz: Takkan nak suruh perempuan bagi. Rm20 je bang. Takde duit. Nak gi Penang lagi.

Police: Macam ni saya saman je la.

Andz: Okie la. Saman la.

Police: Betul ni? Rm30 la.

Andz: Takde bang. Mmg Rm20 je.

Police: Okie la.



WTF.


I'm speechless.


Besides from this event, I think we were pretty much unlucky during the entire trip. The first night itself, we got saman from the police for illegal parking in Gurney Drive after our meal. And also during the second night, while we were rushing to the restaurant for dinner, we overtook a bus and a car and made an illegal turn near the restaurant. Within seconds, we were asked to go to the police station which is only few seconds away from the restaurant and were given another saman for illegal turn. Turned out, the car that we overtook was a policeman's car, who was not in duty. WTF.



Also, when we got to Hard Rock Hotel on the first day, when we checked in, we were told that it will be inclusive of breakfast. And based on that statement, ppl will usually perceived that there will be two breakfast instead of one. Unfortunately, we found out that there was only breakfast for a person instead of two when we got to the dining area. And an addtional breakfast for one person costs us RM60++. Kena conned kao kao. Sigh. Bad experience in Hard Rock. Plus, the stay wasnt worth the amount paid.

Other than that, the food and the visiting with Andz and our friends were really enjoyable. =]

I wish we could have another awesome trip again soon. =]










Anyway, it has only been three hours of my birthday and I've received so many wishes from my friends. One of them even called, who is my beloved Chye Ying. Love her so muchhh! =D So many awesome friends I have, and I'm glad. =]

Thanks for all the wishes people! =D

Never imagine that the only person who I thought is different turned out to be just the same. Someone who I respect and care so much from the beginning till the end. Every single thing I did, I always hope for the best. I never wanted to be a heart breaker. I never wanted to see anyone sad. I tried my very best. Despite of everything, I am always the one to be blamed, and it doesn't matter. But telling the whole world, thats just way too over.

I swear, I promise, I will get want I want in life. The small little things in life that I've put aside for some time. I'm going to get them back, and make sure I live a wonderful life from this moment on.

Never been so messed up before in my entire life.

It just sucks.

It is such a bliss to be waking up next to someone who provides unconditional love every single day in life. Nothing can ever describe the feelings that I had every single morning when I woke up and see the most awesome person in my life. It just melts my heart when he showed me his lovely smile and a peck on my forehead every morning. And even more when he showed up with breakfast on the bed. =]

What else can I ask for when there is someone who is such a good cook who can make me fat, someone who is so tidy that make sure everything is clean and in place, someone who do stupid and gross stuff that actually made me laugh although I felt a little disgusted. Haha. Make it short, someone who just knows what to do at the right time. =p

Long story short, it was the best week ever in my life. And I dont think I'll ever forget how awesome he looked, standing on the bed, looking at me. =D

For now, I just wish for the best in his career and I just know he'll get to the place where he has always dream of. Of course, I will be there too. =]



I love you, baby.

I know there is nothing much that we can do for our grandma for now. All we could do is just to keep our fingers crossed that she wont be suffering much. It really breaks our hearts into tiny pieces by looking at her, lying on the hospital bed, looking restless and tired. Moreover, she has been taking care of the four of us for almost half of our lives. She did a really great job, raising us to who we are today. We appreciate every single thing she did for us while we were still young and cheeky. Did things when she was not aware, had massive arguments in Malay so that she would not understand. Even complaining how sick it was to be eating the same dishes almost everyday, just because one of us mentioned how much we liked the dish for the first time. But now, we were all just craving for those food that we had once complained about. We just miss the tastes of them, which we will never be able to taste again from any other person's cooking.

I know the doctors had given us the heads up on what is coming for us. All I can do for now is just to be there for her, every single day, whenever possible. I love grandma, so much.

At the same time, I really do appreciate that baby has always been here for me, whenever I need him. Thanks baby. *hugs and kisses* =]

One negative stuff after another. Thats just great. Now with my new semester started, I have a mind full of worries and distractions. It seems like life's getting pretty harsh on me lately. But I will not start pointing fingers for whatever that's been bothering me in my mind. Cause it wasn't anyone's fault at all. Things just happened naturally. And probably, one or two might even be because of me. My own fault instead.

I've always known that whatever a person did, he or she must be responsible for whatever's done. Or perhaps, a responsibility that is naturally existed for the role played in life as a family member, friend and etc. Or even perhaps a natural spontaneous reaction on certain things which involves consideration and care.

I really agree that life taught millions of lessons on how to be someone better in this world. And I even started to believe that whatever a mother said or advise, is something that should be accepted and pondered on. When the words of advises are taken and given a thought on, it is then realized that most of them are exactly true and accurate. Its just that it might not appear to be true at that moment, but it might be true in the near future. Thats when people start thinking 'Owh, what she said was actually true. I wish I could have listened to it from the beginning'. I guess people really do learn by making mistakes in life.

But what matters most is that being able to stop making the same mistakes again and appreciate whatever is learnt.

And yes, nothing couldnt be solved indeed. Just gotta keep trying.



P/s: Thanks baby. For everything. =]

I never knew that there are still people who actually visit my blog. Probably it was because of the updates telling them that I've updated my blog coz of the subscription to my blog or whatever you call it. =]

Well, the last semester of my first year had just commenced two days ago and seriously, its the suck-iest timetable I've ever had in my entire college life. Only three subjects this semester, including another stupid lan subject which is known as Malaysian Studies. The sad thing is that I will be attending my classes three days a week and all of the classes are in the evening. And so, in all three days, I will be finishing classes at 6pm or 6.30pm. Kill me. I just cant bare the super packed sardine bus, the congestion on the road to get to the lrt station and also the super packed sardine trains which probably will caused me waiting for few trains in order to get a chance to board a train home. Sigh.

But like it or not, I will still have to go through all that in this semester. There's nothing much I can do about it. The only pro in this is that I will not have to wake up early in the morning or have any chance of skipping classes for not being able to get my lazy ass off the bed. =p

Anyway, the results were okie for me. Never thought that I could actually pass my Law for I got brain dead while sitting for the paper. I still cant imagine how frustrated I was for not having enough rest and wasted half an hour or close to an hour looking at the blank answer sheet and the textbooks in front of me but doing nth. I couldnt even think of anything and all I know is I wanted to just drop my head on the table and sleep all the way. But fortunately, I managed to get very little concentration back and tried scribbling some words throughout the remaining two hours.

Whats past is past, and I could just hope that this semester, I'll do much better than that. =]

Away from that, the three wedding dinners that I've attended for the last two weekends were really awesome. Although it was tiring for waking up early in the morning to attend the morning ceremony and then rushed to get my hair done and then attending the dinner on the same night itself. So much of whiskeys for the weekends too. =]

For the last wedding dinner on Saturday, we had it in Bidor and right after that, my family and I actually headed to Penang for a trip. Its been so long ever since I've went for a trip with my family and it was really awesome. Food was obviously the best thing there. Cheap and delicious. We just cant resist ourselves from food every single hour. Awesome. =p






Owhh. Anyway, before I forget, I just hope things will get much much more better for someone who I cared for, Jasmine. Things will be okie before you even realized it. I will be here for you, whenever you need me. *hugs and kisses* =]

26.5.2010

Who would have thought that a simple guy who I got to know from the oh-so-stupid-please-kill-me subject could have turn out to be a guy who brought me joy and showered me with endless care for the past one month. A guy who I only knew of his existence after he made an approach to introduce himself for the moral assignment. A guy who I realized of his capabilities and qualities that caught my attention through the days. A humorous guy who has so much self confidence and determination within himself which captivates me. =]

He had never failed to keep me company throughout my bad times. He had never given up on whatever I had almost given up on. He has always shown me the light through the path when I got lost and confused.

Who would have thought that I could find someone who is so much of me, with similar interests on music preferences, similar mindset and thoughts on most of the things we could ever thought of. A sweetheart who serenades me with lovely songs and composes melodies to express his feelings towards me. Also, never failed to mesmerize me with all his knowledge on things around us.

Of course, a month definitely seemed like years to us, as though we have known each other for a long period of time. But looking back at it, it was just a month ago where we sat in Austin Chase, studying for my finals and watching Southpark during the breaks or sitting on the swing by the pool under the moonlight where we had endless conversation through the night. =]

And today, you have became a part of me that means so much to me. Someone important who I love and care so much for.









And so, Happy 1st Month-sary baby! =]



*Hugs and kisses*

I should really stop abandoning my blog anymore. And so, I shall be updating more often after this. Hopefully, this spirit will not die off immediately or right after I've posted this. =p

Anyway, the past few weeks were indeed one of the most dramatic moment in my life. When I said dramatic, I really do mean it. It was way too much stress for me to handle. The insufficient time for the finals revision, the insufficient sleep during the exam which happened to end up with a blank mind during my law paper and also some personal matters that were stuck in my mind most of the time. It was just too much.

However, there was one good thing for sure that appeared out of all the negative things mentioned. And probably, it might just be the best thing that could have ever happened to me after all these years. I guess the saying of 'Things happened when you least expect it.' was right. It never occur in my mind that things would have changed. I might have gotten used to being in the comfort zone for so many years and even realized that I had mentioned about stepping out from the circle way too many times but each and every time, I just failed. Complete failure indeed. But, not for this time. Not anymore.

Although I must admit that sometimes, the fear will just be there and it will start messing up my feelings, emotions and thoughts. Driving me clueless and uncertain of everything. And with all that, it did not only affect me alone and it just sucks to know that I was not the only one who was depressed by that. But somehow, I was never to be blamed for anything. I was never to be abandoned for anything at all. He was there for me ever since the very first day, despite of all the things I've said. And how could I possibly ask for more. =]

I really do appreciate everything that was done for me. And as time goes by, everything just grow with all the care and happiness showered on me. All I can do is just to hope that things will get better each day.



P/s: I know you'll read this. And I know you'll know that its you. And so, I just want to tell you that you mean a lot to me now. *Hugs and kisses* And I really miss you. =]

Its been three to four months since I last posted something in this blog. Apparently, I've actually forgotten bout this thing. Probably I was too carried away with my studies and the never ending assignments and tests. Worst still, finals will be after next week. Practically, I am exhausted. Mentally exhausted. Towards the end of this semester, I'm getting fed up, waking up as early as 6am for the 8am classes almost everyday. Not to mention, saturday classes at 8am too. wtf.

Anyway, the news that I've lost a friend of mine drove me to my xanga blog which was abandoned many years ago. There are indeed lotsa precious memories in the past that I will not give up in exchange for anything at all. Be it the good and the bad.

Well, although this friend of mine wasnt really a close one. But he was indeed a good guy. A great guy. I just knew it the moment I met him. A guy who doesnt mind giving and not taking. A guy who I think was the only friend of him who was happy for us. The news was just too sudden to me that I just felt like apart of me was taken away. Feeling lost at the moment. However, I know someone else might be ten times or even uncountable times as painful as I felt on his loss. I do hope he'll be fine soon.

'You were a good friend and I'll remember the moments and conversations that we had. Perhaps we shall meet again at the end of my time. Take care my friend'

As happy as its supposed to be, it has now turned into nothing. No more Singapore trip: Here I come. Sigh. But, there will be Hi Cameron Highlands: Here I come. Haha. Will be heading up to the hill with my family on the third day of cny and when I'm back on the fifth day, I will be heading to Pd again the following day. Probably Avillion if there will be rooms available. =]

College's getting sucks. Every week, there's a subject for sure which the lecturer will be away. Then, there will be tons of replacement classes which falls on the Friday or Saturday. Its pretty sad to be having classes on Friday, whats more having replacement classes till late evening. And a week after cny, there comes mid term exam. With tons of assignments to be done. *okie. stop complaining and start doing something*

I must start studying for marketing. =] I dont know why marketing but I just feel like I should. Now, who wants to go study with me?

This semester's schedule is totally hectic. Total of five days classes in a week which limits the amount of days I'll be working. No good. At the same time, I only have limited time to do my revisions. Adui. Still, I'll try to squeeze in some time to study from time to time. =]

Guess lately I've been pretty active in Facebook and especially Twitter. The Twaroke last two weeks was totally awesome but unfortunately, I missed out the Tali Tenang event which I heard was quite fun and enjoyable. So, if anyone happens to have twitter, do follow me @MeryllChan. =]

As I'm typing this, I totally have difficulty in breathing as I'm having flu and cough. Luckily this happened before the cny. Please get well soon. Same goes to Andz. I think I actually infected him. =p

At the same time, I seriously do miss Darling Yun. Please come back to me. Haha! Of course after Jason has left to his hometown. =]

Well, will be renewing my passport tomolo with Andz for we will be heading to Singapore during the cny! =D awesome!

This blog is dead. Laziness is taking over me. I'll try to update more often. Basically, I just spent my entire sem break by working, partying, catching up with long lost friends, knowing some new ppl and going trips with Andz.

And starting on Monday, life will be pretty much involving studies and travelling to college again. After for almost two months, it really feels weird to be going back to college again. Anxiety? I dont think so.